death times TWO.

report cards. oh shit. my grades are soo bad for this one. AFTER i told my parents this one will be good, its full of 60s and 70s? O.o oh fuuucck. im so screwed. i wont be able to go out or anything. well, at least ill save some money. im almost fucking broke, AGAIN. fuck fuck fuck. i haaate myself. i have absolutely no motivation. im deeply disappointed in myself. i need to pick myself up, again. although im not sure if i was even fully picked up from before. im terrible. ugh. IB exams are coming up. i dont know if i can do it. i cannot fail. my parents paid for the test. im such a goner. study study study for the next month..oh dear. im gonna be living under a rock for a month. exxceept to see prom night. that looks so good, and im totally gonna go see that. but from now on, its school, homework, and work. NO GOING OUT AND SPENDING MONEEEY! ><