I dont even know why I've been so mad. This whole week I pretty much alientaed myself, and then went and said "I'm so lonely." There are a couple of screws loose in my head, I know. I guess sometimes things just get to be so much and all things that are frustrating start coming along on top of that, and it's hard to get a hold of. Always I wish I was a stronger person, a braver person, someone who doesn't let the small, irrelevant things explode into omg-my-life-is-over things. Maybe being that person comes with time for some people...and the people who are born like that, well, they probably have other problems of their own. It's unfortunate that everyone in the world has to have problems..otherwise..well I'm sure they'd be like R2D2 or something. It's just hard when I constantly find myself in the same exact rut. The same problem, the same situation. My God, I'm 19. I'm not 15 anymore, life has to have changed a little bit, right? This whole "I have no idea where I'm going with my life" thing is just getting me so tired and depressed. And I'm tired of being tired and depressed. Tomorrow is Friday..I won't mope. I won't mope. I'm gonna smile, and laugh, and figure out all my math problems, and then try and figure out all of my life problems..and if that fails..well, I'm going dancing. That is the cure to my droopy, mopey, sad-as-shit, self-depression week.