Before I was angry. I was pissed. And confused. So fucking confused, because I didn't know what I had done to make this happen. I still don't know, I have no idea. But I guess now I'm over it. I have no words anymore. It was like a fucking switch, just all of a sudden, things changed, and you were done with me. I wasn't in your life anymore, in any way. It feels terrible. Fucking terrible. You just up and froze me outta your life. It feels like it did the first time we stopped talking..I remember feeling pissed like I do now. But as time passed, I got over it. I understood things better. And now it's like it's the same shit. But actually not really. Because this wasn't just "things changed, and life happened, and we got distant." I'm still fucking here. I'm still around if you took the time outta your fucking life to see it. I understand that things have changed, you've met new people, but does becoming close to them mean that I'm out like garbage? I was never asking for us to be like we were, all those years ago. I knew we couldn't be like that again. But we were pretty darn close. It felt so good to see you after all that time, and have it still feel the same way it felt when we were young. We would talk, and talk, and talk some more. All the time. I don't even know anymore. Maybe sometime soon I won't be such a fucking coward and I'll tell you these things to your face. I'm tired of being this girl. There were times during our friendship where you had pissed me off, over and over again, but I never told you. Always, always I brushed it off. Not this time. I've grown up.