Need a wake-up call

I'm at a point in my life where I feel like I'm supposed to be extremely happy. This is the time where I'm supposed to be living my life UP. School is finished, summer has finally come...so what's missing? What's wrong? I'm disappointed cause I'm not entirely happy. Sometimes I feel like I want too much, and then all of a sudden, I don't want any of it. I feel like I'm five different people all sharing one head. I think I've been reading too many books. Books with happy endings. You know the kind. Where the book starts out with the main character not knowing anything about her life and what she wants to do, she's single and lonely..but by the end of the book, she's had like half a million epiphanies and is now in love w/ a cutiepie bf and they are together and happy. Yeah. Those books that are written by people so that the readers will have some sense of hope and fulfillment in their lives, but then realize that it's never gonna happen and then in turn accept the misery and despair that will inevitably be their future. Damn those books.